I wonder how much our self worth and self confidence is influenced by outside force. In the ongoing class I’m taking with author Bob Mayer, he talks about motivation. Somehow, authors on contract may find less pleasure in their writing then those who have no strings.
I don’t know but I have to confess that my latest Amazon ranking got me quite depressed. So much that I questionned whether I had it as a writer and whether anyone would actually buy the book when it comes out.
So in a bit of despair, I pre-ordered a copy of my own book. Well, the ranking shot up way past some other authors at the same level as I am. Well quite the eye opener. So, I had been measuring my self worth against something that can be changed with just one small purchase.
Time to realign my priorities. Hard when you have doubts about how your work will be received. I don’t aim very high, I certainly know that I will never please anyone. Just please a few would be good.
And just as in real life. We can’t please everyone. It’s just so damn hard to admit sometimes.
Blessed Be
(to find the artist of the artwork above, just click on it)
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Pleasing yourself counts more. I know this is a cliche, but only you can realize and bring to fruition the work that you are meant to do. Look at what you have created so far! All of this creative force in you has surfaced and you are doing something about it. You have come so far……. I am ordering your book today!!
February 22nd, 2010
You are so right Chris. This whole artistic thing is new to me but I think when you put your while heart in it you never tired of it.
So nice to see you drop by my blog. Hope all is well with you and thanks for ordering the book
February 22nd, 2010
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