I just spent my winter break on a movie marathon with my kids. I could have been more productive but I caught a nasty cold and felt my body needed the rest.
Feeding the fear…
I noticed that when I spent a lot of time on Facebook, my fear of writing increases. I see lots of feed from friends with new releases which feed into my fear that there is no longer enough space for new stories. Or that my stories are not au par quality wise with what’s up there.
Or I follow the latest thoughts on publishing which gets my head spinning into what I should do next, which in turns feeds right into my fear of rejection.
My biggest fear just after I sold was that I’d turn into a one-hit-wonder. And the funny thing is, it actually happened. And the world didn’t end.
In plotting, I always ask this of my characters. What is their worse fear? Now how can I make this happen in the plot? How can they grow from that?
Not very different from my own life. Failure is how we learn.
Filling the well…
What I noticed in watching my LOTR and Harry Potter movie marathon was that I really really love this sword and sorcery world. I really love the pure faithful type love story of Arwen and Aragorn, I really love the good against evil battle, the big things. And watching and taking in those stories in turn creates those voices inside my head that can’t be silenced and need to go on paper.
I’m not sure how it happened that I turned my focus from that to book marketing. I don’t think that shift is very good for me right now. And while I know the business side of thing is important, I really think it should not take more than 10% of my thinking time.
And I think that what is coming into my head via various media should be a whole lot more wonderful fiction stories and a whole lot less chit chat feeding into my fears.
Goal: Finishing the edits of Warlock’s Kiss
I am done with the first scene and started to edit and patch up the second scene which is hard because it’s a rewrite. Some of the things I had written just don’t fit into the new story. I’m not as productive as I should be and being sick didn’t help. But I’m mending and tomorrow starts a new organized week so I’m confident I’ll see progress this week.